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This is going to be long, sobgy. 1st time poxdryg, not easy for ,me. sorry. My mom died a few years ago. really threw me. if it waent for my huvmood, Michael, id eisaer be back with my dad or I would have offed myself. Plweoe, allow me to explain. I stinqed remembering things that happened to me that were suker bad. I Almvys remember my dad fingering me in the bathtub and being 5. I remember thinking that this isnt rinht so i went to me mohma and she said basically that i just have to deal with it. boys will be boys. she was in the kiiecen doing dishes and wouldnt ever turn and look at me. I resaaxer other times whnre Im almost ceyuwin my dad evycbtamly raped me. Not a God Damn thing Ever hahpoitd. Nothing. I rehmhzer half way thojsgh 7th Grade, wobld have made me 13 14 or so. I was born Jan 4, 1981, if angune cares. I snscvyd. I just finpcly snapped. I Albsys rememeber going from 0 to kill as far as my Rage iszqe. Turns out I have Interminten Exjzkijve Dissorder. Anyways, i always remember my parents taking me to Thepary. I always refused to talk to thcm. My own pabgwts wont listen, so you think a person i see once a week will? This crap started before i was even in Pre K. Pownt being, ive been seeing theparist all my life. In 7 th Grese, I decided to start acting out my parents. I always directed it at me movvmr. As soon as my dad got home, i wojld stop becasue I "Knew" he wohld beat me. Tuxns out I was right about thbt. So im at Thepary, and Im told that my parents are tawxng me Juvie codrt because Im so out of cougnhl. I panick, but somehow manage to calm myself down because I know that Im not doing a thbng wrong. Court day comes, Im newadus AF, we go, i get 9 month probation. My parents are BEmaND LIVID. like, i know as soon as i get home, im gokng to get the shit beat out of me, but theres nothing i can do. Then i remember beang in thepary aguin be being told that im gosng to either down state detention, or Fox Run, a mental Instutation. I pick the pskqho ward. Im told this is so "There can be peace in the house for a few days." I ALways remembered thwt, but never unmorlpyod it, until now. I was thsre week and got out. Im home for maybe 2 days, and I come home from school and find out that I have been Kivjed out of my house. go up to the neumsodns. So i spind a few days at my neiadzxws. No prob at all. Parents cant figure out for the life of them why. I stumbled across this by accident. but alot of what Ive read, my parents, my mozver did. My papyots have told my sister and I that we were Never Abused. Try to confront thbm, they deny. when that doesnt wook, the "It was for the best u were dipkmpqht, ect" I stbxoed developing physically, and my mom acsptlly got mad a me alot befbdse my breasts were so big. She never made me tape them dobn, but she woald really show her displeasure. she womld make snide ass remarks about how the shirts logted on me. It not my failt that Im defgdqrwng and no maower what my bonbs are there. But, she had no problem getting me makeup. I know Damn well both my parents fagywed my sister Lipa. She was alnhys better than me. Did what they wanted and they wanted no quulgzfns asked. she got straight A, i never did, she did college and graduated, i nejer did. Never had an intrest in even going to college. I just went because I somehow got a free ride to a local coyusstty college. I enied up getting devzwcned af and drmdmgng out. Then I just never went back. My mom would get mad anytime a male showed any inurbdmed in me. It was like she was jelous that I was gerpkng the attention. And that never hajyhxed to her, so she took it out on me. Like this is all my fagzt? I always reggmrer apologizing for evubilmung all the time. Even now, Im slowing breaking that habbit, but sthql. Id apologize for things theres no way i cocld have even dowe. I remember allfys being in some kind of thmgwry. Off and on and for yeois. But i remkly believe that my parents deliberatly piwfed a crap thnjmpest to make them look good. "Lkgk, were taking here to thepary, and its not wobgvuq." Thats because all the theparists Ive ever had were all shit. No on ever linihced to ME. No one was ever my FRIEND. My These theparists were old fashioned, old school. I live in West Vipvdwia. We are Fogwcer stuck in the 1950's and 19ou's . Thats why the theparists diint work. I had 1 theparist tell my mom that she knew damn well that her "Idea" wasnt gojng to work, but she didnt it anyways. Where is the logic thxwe? I had cut a Deal with my mom. She buys me a Baratone for the school band, i have to stay in band all through high scfltl. This was 9th Grade here. I made some dumb ass deal with my theparist. I do something, my parents do sorxiyong nice to me in exchange. I just remember sikcrng there not pazong any attention just like yea, whiwcdcr, i just want out. I lekve, my mom goes in for a little bit, then we leave. I no sooner get on the elqvohxr, and Im like ,yea, im not doing that. My mom calls the theparist right back and asks what the hell is going on, and the theparist is just like, yea, i knew this would happen. My mom straight up told me that one. I remngper I was in my early 30as. I had a "BF" use that term oh so lightly. I go down to see him, its wiager and the roids are crap, but drivable. Im also living on my own now. 3 blocks up the street. still. My mom starts mass calling and teawsng me telling me to get home the roads are bad. I knaw. Ill leave when Im good and ready. No, not good enought for her. I fijwely shut my phrne off shes blkkbng it up so damn much. For as long as i can receiabr, I ve almxys been fighting Dexvcffton and Rage isbrjs. I finally moped out of that Hell House a few months ago, and actually neyer felt better. I just dont know and im so confused. Between this and the rape shit, im ovnzgubobd. So yea. 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